This is a story I wrote several years ago while living on a farm in Chile it shows how deep is our love for all things called life. I will be out of touch for awhile heading to the Smokey Mountains to help build a little healing community and I wanted to leave you a gift and this was the best gift I could feel would say what it is I want for all of us, a world filled with compassion and love in both life and death. I was spending lots of time in a Buddhist center near the farm and teaching one of my first classes on Quantum Polarity in the O boards at this time and I feel the teachings I received from both of these events reflect in this story.
"This month’s healing brought me thoughts of compassion and healing for those who wage war and for those who are victims of those who wage war. (How appropriate in light of the rampage of killing in Afghanistan) During my meditation several times I thought about the River of Life and trying to stay in the middle of these two powerful polarized energies so that I could use my balance to send healing energy to both. We finished and spent some time healing each other with group reiki sessions and I left feeling at peace.
When we returned to Florencia's farm we found that neighbor’s dogs had attacked several of the llamas she is raising. They had killed a beautiful pure white llama and had attacked two others. One who could not stand had dragged itself across the field it´s rearend torn to shreds. The third had escaped with several large bites in its rear legs.
I can’t put into words the pain I felt looking at the carnage. We went to work on the one who could not walk, wrapping her in a rug to warm her, while I built a lean to tent to protect her from the rain. It was impossible to move her so we tried to make her as comfortable as possible. I ran energy into her and felt her weeping soul, scared and confused as to why these animals had waged war on her and her family. I told her I was there for her and would do what I could to help her make it though this one way or another.
I cry as I write this because my heart breaks for the tragedies in life and I know there are so many tragedies happening all over the world but tragedies no matter their size, where they are or who they effect do not change the essence that is me at my core. I stay true to my point of conception and find strength in my belief that it is better for me to have an effect on the tragedies than for the tragedies to change who I am.
I was deeply affected by the healing meditation I had done at the Buddhist center today and I was deeply affected by the anger I felt over this ruthless attack. These two opposites existed in one space and time. As difficult as it was to make sense of them existing side by side, in the same day, I found I could use one against the other to keep me at Zero point, in that place of Quantum Polarity, where I could see that the essence of my strength was the strength of my essence. The me at conception, where the circumstances outside of me could not change the person I saw and felt to be deep inside of me.
I am sure I will paddle back and forth in the river over the next few days, but knowing that the center is where I want to be, will I know keep me closer to it and there I will find the peace that lives in my soul.
I went to bed alone, shivering and full of sadness, feeling my grief as it filled me, while I also let the healing energy from the Buddha’s birthday celebration, the One World Healing session we had done and the Celestine Prayer Group meeting, fill me as lay there, these were all about how can we personally cope with suffering in our own lives and what do the wisdom traditions tell us about staying upbeat and positive in a world with natural challenges, thinking of them filled me with hope for a better tomorrow. I was now floating in the calm, clear, silently deep waters of the center of the river of life and there I found peace and I cried and slept like a baby.
I woke rested and more determined than ever to continue my exploration of this thing called Quantum Polarity. This is new territory I am traveling and it has stretched me and forced me to go deeper. It has lifted my soul and carried my spirit. It has also helped me understand why I had resently been given my new Buddhist name and I now wear it with pride for I am Nuela Chogyal, ¨King of the Road of the Medicine Buddha¨ and on that road I H.E.A.L. Heal Earth And Life. I am so happy to be traveling that road with all of you and hope you can feel the healing energy I am sending you daily.
Now I must go attend a funeral of a good animal friend and use my healing gift from God to help another find her way to the center of the river and the home of her essence because that is what I do.
I Hope that if you cry for me and this situation, you will also smile for me and feel the peace and balance that is there at Zero Point, Quantum Polarity, that point that is in the center of all of us, where Gods love fills us with hope.
God Bless You All!
Lesson 4 A Gift From God
I returned to Florencia's farm to help bury our friend and to I hope continue treatment of the other llama that was injured. As we walk through the field Florencia told me of a dream she had that night, about the injured llama, in it he turned into a very beautiful young man, he was sitting in a meditation pose as if in a trance and though his body carried all the injuries of the llama he seemed to not be suffering. She said he then became completely illuminated, opened his eyes and smiled at her. She said she had felt such peace in his smile. I smiled thinking how all along I had thought the llama was a beautiful woman.
We were both expecting to find our friend passed on, for yesterday the vet had said there was nothing could be done to save him and that he would pass very soon, when they had turned him over the extent of his injuries were much worse than we had thought, a large part of his body was missing torn away by the dogs in the attack. Being a devote Buddhist Florencia could not put him down, so they had decided to let him pass in the night naturally while resting under the tent I had built for him.
As we approached we saw that he was holding his head high and seemed to be staring into space as if in a trance. He laid his head on the ground as we approached. Florencia could not believe he was still alive. I felt it was because he was only three years old and still holding strongly to life. We ran some Reiki on him to help ease his suffering. He seemed so calm and as if he were accepting his condition and not struggling against it. I knew if we were going to get the other llama buried today we had better get started so we left him resting and went to find his brother, the other llama that had died.
We spent several hours, just the two of us, digging the grave as a cold rain fell. The task did not seem difficult and time passed rapidly. We finished by putting a headstone on his grave, some flowers and both I and Florencia decided to leave him a little gift she planted a mushroom on his grave and I put a big footprint on top and filled it with green plants.
We returned to our gallant friend who was now clearly suffering and breathing heavy. We sat on each side of him and laid our hands on his head. We started praying the mantra "Om Mani Padme Hum" over and over we chanted. This is said to help one in passing over. I then began running Chi energy into him and ask him why he would not let go. He responded very clearly, " I want to see my mother before I go" I knew his mother was in another pasture and it would take hours to round her up and bring her here and I did not believe we had that kind of time. So I prayed to my old traveling Shaman friend and spirit guide and ask him what I should do. He said to me, "You Are His Mother" I took a deep breath, pulling all the colors of my Chakra into it and pushed this energy out though my hands as I said, “Son I am here, I have come to visit you before you go and to tell you that I love you very very much. As I said this the llama let out a big sigh and lifted his head a bit. I then reached deep and prayed to God "God I have not asked you for much in my life time but I pray to you now please come and take my son home with you. As I finished this prayer the llama took one last big breath, opened his eyes and smiled as he passed over. Both Florencia and I had the feeling that his spirit was being lifted upward by Angels and at that moment a large flock of golden birds passed just overhead sounding as if they were singing as they headed for the river.
I knew in those last moments when the llama was in the most extreme discomfort possible, he was also feeling his ultimate joy and bliss and I knew he had found his way to the center of the river of life and to the inner peace that was there for him. I watched him as he drifted by and I saw him as he found the rainbow bridge to the other side and as God and all his Angels walked with him over that bridge to the garden of Eve and I thought, we are all truly Children Of His Rainbow World. I began sobbing deeply affected by his passing, while overwhelmed with the joy of being a child of such a compassionate God I too had found the center of the River of Life.
Now class here is the real Lesson I wish to pass on to you. Listen closely and look inside yourself and there you will find the gift I wish to give you on this day of celebration. For today was a day of death and passing and it is also a day of birth and new beginnings because today is my actual birthday. Today I have been given the greatest gift possible from my maker, a real lesson in living and dying and living life at Zero point."
I love you for reading this and hope you will find your compassion and love for everything that is us as ONE energy in life and death!
Peace, Love and understanding that touching everything and attaching nothing but love brings Deep lasting Healing.